4th time this year.

i'm SICK... again.
i used to never get sick.
now i get sick all the time--- and it lasts forever

after teaching choir, my throat was hurting and i was thinking to myself
'did i yell at the kids more than usual?'
then at night, it hit me like a storm
i started shaking like i had rabies
my legs. arms. head. everything hurt.
i tried to ride it out for a couple of hours until i couldn't handle it anymore
then i ran to frank and jony's room.

i know what you must be thinking.
c'mon 22 year old. don't you think you're a little too big to go running into your parents room in the middle of the night?
but i didn't know what else to do.


it wasn't even going to make my sickness go away;

still, it's better than nothing.

me being uncomfortable made two more people uncomfortable
oh well
they kinda just let me put my feet on their legs cuz mine were cold
thats what parents are for, i guess
they thaw out frozen feet (?)

after that i don't remember much else except waking up in the early morning and leaving them cuz it was too hot. they lost their appeal.

my dad told me that at one point, he put his hand on my neck to see if i was still hot
and i asked in a timid voice "who is this?"

noo goo sae yo ??

as if it was God, coming to take me away.

as if...